Friends

So, I have this friend at work who I like to think we are actually pretty close. At one point it really seemed like it then something happened. I had my own suspicions of what was happening even though she didn't say. I knew it was a boy who was the cause of this difference and that she was keeping something from me. It caused us to be different and for things to happen. What she doesn't realize is that I long ago had figured it out. I'm not stupid and she is my friend and nothing can come between that. Well the other day she finally decided she was going to tell me but then didn't. Later that evening I get a message from him stating they are together and I need to stop telling her he is flirting with me because he is not. Immediately after that he sends a message meant for her stating that the next day all hell was going to break loose. Like seriously. If it weren't for that message I would have simply replied that I was happy for them because in all reality I already had figured this out myself. But then he had to say those words. Not only that but I never said he was flirting with me so I don't know where that even came from. The words I used were "he was being nice to me for once which is weird but he only does it when no one is around." Well when she relayed these messages to him, he took it as I was saying he was flirting. I told her as well that I never said he was flirting and she went at him with that because that was not what she told him even though he took it that way. Anyways, I was not upset about all of this I was truly happy I mean with the way that he is, how could she not fall for his smooth talking. He's so sweet and does all the little things that every woman wants her man to do. But at the same time, he's stupid and immature and inexperienced and clueless and very feminine. More so than we originally thought. 

Anyways, I was upset because she didn't tell me and because I had know for a while she was keeping something from me and it just wasn't the same between us because of it and of course I had put two and two together on my own but all the same, she should have just told me. She was scared to tell me. I mean she sees me like a sister but at the same time I come off like this bitch sometimes. Or I give people the impression that I'm psycho. It's just my defense mechanism that keeps people at a distance from me because to be honest, I'm tired of being hurt. But anyways, I prayed on the way to work that next morning and planned to just put a smile on my face and just be happy because that's me. Sure I wanted to have a talk with her but I didn't want to have any drama either. Well when I got there she smiled and said good morning and I replied good morning and asked if we could talk. We then proceeded to hug because we can't stay mad at each other. It really was ok. We both felt better having gotten everything out in the air. I told her that the only thing I was upset about was the fact that she didn't tell me. That she kept it from me knowing that it was fine. We both expressed the fact that we had prayed on the way to work and how we both felt better and we could see a difference in ourselves like we were back to normal with each other and all. 

After all that was out and everything, things were better. And I know ultimately what she is doing with him. I also know that when someone is that great to you that it's very easy to fall in love and that the other person moves quickly so also be careful. I don't want her to get hurt. I've also learned a lot more things about him and his family since everything. I found out that weekend she was supposed to go with me (he was too) that she went to Houston with him last minute. And the things she said he did for her are exactly him. I can't say there wasn't a bit of jealousy as that was supposed to be my weekend but I'm honestly truly happy for the both of them. She has told him to be nice to me. He's really like her little bitch to be honest. Does anything she wants and all. Which is good for the both of us because she is going to look out for the both of us. I'll always be here, he may get tired of her and leave one day. But at least now, she knows that she can tell me anything. I mean she feels so comfortable she can truly be herself with me and she really can. That's how friends are, but she was still not sure about sharing that one thing with me because she knew how much I liked him. But the way that I like him is totally different. All I wish for is his friendship because he really can be a great guy and he is a very big sweetheart with a wonderful family. I'm just happy we had a great ending to Friday after all that. Until next time!

~Amanda Kay