Life

So it's that time where I decide to call and visit my cousins kids. Only when I call the lady refuses to allow me to see them. So I again reach out to CPS just to find out they were trying to contact me to see if I wanted custody of the children. I tried before but because both mom and dad put their aunt on the list and they had had them previously for short term, they automatically went to them. I think about it and I stress because it's a lot to take on three more kids when you are finally getting somewhere with your life and providing for your children. But I could never turn my back on children. Especially when a child has expressed to you himself at 5 years old that he wants to live with you. This child is now 6 and has told CPS that he doesn't feel loved where he is at. I think to not feel loved as a child is worse than any punishment that could be given. Not to mention he has two younger siblings that can't express how they feel. It's just sad I tell ya. So I'm going through the background check. I know I pass but I don't  know if Chris does. Either way I'm prepared for if they come. All I need is child care. Those children will be so much happier here. I always wanted to do foster care one day. Just didn't think I'd be doing something similar so soon while my children are still so young. I'll literally have a 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, and 7 year old in my home. That's 6 kids. 3 boys and 3 girls. I'm already in the system so it's pretty easy to get me in. It's a lot to take in. Lots of big changes. But the kids will be so happy and I can stress how ever much I want. I know God will provide as he always has. He keeps putting this situation in my face. It's what I'm meant to do....

~Amanda Kay