So, I do not have a great deal of time and I certainly do not wish to get emotional as I do so often these days so I'll try to keep this short.
Let's face it. I'm just not the mother I wished to be. I don't wish to just be a stay at home mom. But I do wish I could be home more. I wish to be able to support and provide for my children but still be existent in their lives versus tied to a job just to be able to support them.
Being home with your children even a little has a big impact on them. It's honestly noticeable the difference.
I wish I could be that parent who is able to be there for class parties at school and field day and field trips. But unfortunately I'm just not. Time doesn't allow it if I'm to support my family. But you know what I am able to do? Be there for award ceremonies at the end of every year.
I want to be that mom who can do arts and crafts with the kids and take them on fun adventures. But unfortunately I am not. But I do sign them up for sports with all my extra cash and make it to every game. I'm not the loud parent on the sidelines but I take lots of memorable pictures we can always look back on.
I wish to one day teach my children so much more about love through foster care and adoption. There is always more love just like there are so many children out there who need someone to just be there for them and love them. But let's face it. I'll probably never get the opportunity to do this despite my ability to set goals and plan and strive to reach those goals. But, in my efforts to try I will teach my children to never give up. Giving up is the easy way out that accomplishes nothing.
Being a working mother is hard. But it's for the best for my children and ensures they have everything they need. Sure my house may not be the cleanest or most organized but it will be a home and my available time will always be spent with my children in top priority.
~Amanda Kay
May you always find strength in your days...
