My Self

I know everyone has issue with their bodies and the way they look. I'm no different, but let me say this. I can deal with my legs and how I think they are too big, I can deal with my butt that I feel is flat and ugly but still so big and I can even deal with the fact that I hate my breasts and feel they could really use plastic surgery but my belly. That is one thing I just cannot accept.  What I see with clothes on appears like I'm pregnant when I'm not. My clothes don't fit. And without clothes I feel like a blob. This is what really gets me. How do I fix such a thing when I try and try and never succeed in this area. I won't even begin to mention the other issue with this. But I will not give up!

~Amanda Kay

Life...And Stuff

Well I can't say that things aren't coming along quite nicely. I mean I get by. I just feel like I overwhelm myself with the amount of things  I do. I have tons of pictures waiting to be uploaded so they can eventually be printed and placed into books. I have tons already printed and ready to be placed in books. I have a huge playlist of songs to still download only to later convert them to itunes so I can put them on my ipod. The problem is the time it takes to do them. Honestly, sometimes, I'd rather crawl into a good book. Which by the way my library is growing very fast. Faster than I can keep up. But the reason behind that is lately I just feel like being lazy. You see, I'm always on the go with things to do. But me rushing and stressing does not get them done any sooner. It just stresses me out more. My least favorite thing to do is pay the bills. Doing that reminds me how broke I am. Now, like I said I get by, but I don't have anything extra and somethings have to be cut back on. I don't know many people who could go without eating meat like I do. Of course I'm not a big meat fan in general but meat is the most expensive food when grocery shopping so I opt out of buying it. Anyways, life is treating us decent. I know God has plans for us and is guiding us in the right direction and honestly that is the most important thing to remember. So when like gets you down on one knee, take that moment to pray to our Heavenly Father who art in Heaven. And don't forget to do so on other occasions sometimes too.

~Amanda

Fairy tale Romance and ALL THAT GOOD STUFF

So, Everyone (ok really just a lo of women) dream about having that fairy tale romance at some point in life. But is that really what they want? You see we grow up reading books and watching movies that have that happy ever after ending and the relationship portrayed is completely unreal to the real world. Now don't get me wrong, people can really be that way but the odds of meeting someone who is like that is slim. 

But anyhow, what's the real deal behind these things we see that cause us to want? Well here's the thing, usually the fairy tale romance is pretty cheesy and fake. But the want, lust, desire, the passion and all the heat that is created between the two, that is very much real. That is what people really wish to find, not the whole fairy tale romance. Just the pure desire of another. And don't get me wrong, this can be had BUT, a lot of people are so concerned with themselves in the world today that they don't take the time to care about the one they are with which means no desire, no lust, no real want and in the end no real happiness. 

Just a little two cents on the matter.

~Amanda